Thursday, October 30, 2014

Oncologist Appt.

 Prayer Warriors! 
Tomorrow is my first oncology appointment. So around 10:30 if you remember please pray! I am a ball of nerves! It's just the unknown of everything and waiting that has me this way.

Also I want to say thank you so much for the calls,texts,the messages, and the cards! It has been so encouraging to me! God has blessed me with amazing friends and family!! Love ya'll! 

Psalms 13:5
But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me. 

Brandi




Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Finding Out

Good Evening!
As promised I said my next post was how I found out. Many of you have asked "How did you find the lump?" So hold tight and here we go… 
I had my annual check up in May all was good. Nothing was said when they did my breast exam. But over the summer I felt something that did not feel normal. I put it off in the back of my mind and went on enjoying the summer. Well time after time I kept feeling it wondering, thinking is this a lump? Surely not! I am so young. Stop worrying. So again off to the back of my mind. Again I felt it but really started to become scared. What if its a lump? I told myself. What if its cancer? I have not done anything about it these past few months. So I prayed "Lord if its something then please help me know what I should do". Well the end of September I woke up from my sleep and the Lord came to me and said "Brandi you need to tell Spencer about the lump". I was like really? What if it for nothing? I fell back asleep. I was woke up again still being warned I needed to tell Spencer. I was reminded what I had asked the Lord earlier. Well I was scared and the Lord reminded me of my favorite Bible lady Esther! I am thinking Esther really Lord? He was like you need to be brave like her. I was like "she was super brave and Lord I am not". He reminded me He was with me!
 So as morning came I was scared as can be and asked Spencer to feel the lump. He asked "what is that"? So we decided that I needed to get it checked out. So I got in to see my OBGYN on October 2 and she referred me for a Mammogram and Ultrasound for the following week. October 7 was that appointment. They knew I felt the lump and confirmed it was not a cyst and needed to get a biopsy. I got in to see the Surgeon on October 16. This appointment was just a new patient appointment and to set up the biopsy(even said so in the paper work). Well Spencer and I went in to the room. They did another ultrasound and then exam. The Doctor came in and introduced himself and then said "We are going to go ahead and do the biopsy today". I was a little shocked. Today? When the paperwork and sign at the front desk tells new patients no biopsy will be done this visit. So Spencer was concerned and asked "why today?" They just said since we were here lets do it. So I was put in the surgical room while Spencer went to get the Valium they prescribed to relax me for the procedure. So after that I was told we should have the results back on the 21st. Well that was my birthday. Happy 36th Birthday! How crazy! So the waiting game started. Now ya'll know the story! 

I hope if nothing else comes from you reading this YOU will do yourself a favor. Go and google how to do a self breast exam! It just might save your life. 

I will end this post with this verse from John 16:33

"I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you WILL have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world."


Brandi

Monday, October 27, 2014

Setting up the blog!

Hello Everyone!
Well are you ready to start this journey with me? Are you ready to see where God is going to take us? Are you scared? Probably not as scared as me!  So hold on daily to Jesus as you journey this path God has set before me and my family! Before you read each post I want you to PRAY for strength, healing, peace and how God can be glorified through this. 

The verse that I have kept close to my heart since finding out that I have Breast Cancer is in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

"My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness. So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That is why I take pleasure in my weakness and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and in troubles. For when I am weak then I am strong."

I know this is a HUGE shock to me and my family and all of you! I think I am in a nightmare waiting to finally wake up. But as I am typing the reality is. Its real! 

Thank you to all my family and friends that have reached out. It means the world to me! I feel so loved! 
Thank you for the prayers. I have truly felt them. I have been able to function way better than I had thought. I already see God working and helping me get through this. Its one day at a time. One appointment at a time. 

I am sleepy and headed to bed. I will post tomorrow about how I even found out I had Breast Cancer.

Brandi
 photo credit: Mari Wilkes